Answered prayers

It's crazy to think that another school year is starting & I'm entering into my junior year of high school!! It's even crazier to think that I'm actually excited for school to start for the first time in five years. Those of you that really know me & my story will know that this is a HUGE accomplishment for me. I've actually accomplished quite a few things this last three months of summer & God has answered my biggest prayer and helped me turn my fear & anxieties into that of faith & hope. There are two factors to this story; one being about school & the other is my family wanting to move into a bigger house.

The last five years of my life have been a build up to what I had to deal with & resolve within these last six months. So just a quick summary: I've suffered severe bullying & since I didn't know how to properly deal with it, that developed into depression & social anxiety. Now generally I'm a happy person I love being able to show others Jesus's love & be able to express my everyday joy. If you've seen the movie "Inside Out", I literally went from being the character Joy, to overtime becoming Sadness. Just everything about that character was EXACTLY how I felt. Obviously you're always sad but she also would always think about the "what if" factor & that would spiral down into a panic attack & then she would be "too sad walk". Yes that was me. I was tired of having to go to school & see those people that hated me. I didn't want to deal with their wicked words getting back to me or them snickering as I walked in front of them. I had people who said that they were my friends but they acted like I meant nothing to them. I was done.

So here's the second factor which has issues of it's own. Anyone who has ever had a conversation with my dad knows that he will take every chance he gets to talk about his home in Montana. I see why he's so passionate about it though, I love it there. Anyways, he loves the outdoorsy, country feel of a home and so for the last year and a half we have been looking to move to a bigger home with more land so we could use it for ministry purposes. Around March we had found this nice property about five acres, it was Clovis North district (which gave me the hopeful thought that I could move away), & it was in a flood zone so no one was allowed to build around us. We all fell in love but God had a different plan for us & closed those doors after nearly three months of time investment. After that we found an even better house with a little under two and a half acres, Buchanan district, a huge barn, & pool. If y'all have ever heard of the "Rustic Ranch" wedding venue, well that was the place. When we got the well report, it read that it only pumped two gallons per minute which is TERRIBLE so has hard as it was for my family, we had to let that go & move on because God has something better planned. We were about ready to give up when God lead us to the most perfect house that we have ever seen. It is on city water and pluming so praise Jesus we don't have to deal with the well and septic. It's a two story house & it looks like a barn. Built in 1975 and they remodeled the entire thing in 2016. Currently we are in escrow on this house & God willing we move in on the 28th!!

Now you're thinking okay well, what was the prayer & what was the answer? If you go back and look at the two stories it's amazing how they each played a roll. My prayer that I have cried out to God for was whether I should move schools or not. This is just me thinking out loud but if I stayed where I was, I don't know if I would be able to function on my own and more so be alive. Since my family was going to move, God opened up a door for me to get away from what was making me mentally ill. July 18, 2017 was the day that mine and my brother's papers were accepted for transfer and a few weeks later were finalized. I am now a Buchanan Bear. Some of you may be happy for the right or wrong reason and some of y'all are probably mad at me. Please keep in mind this is so big to me and I am so happy to be going to a different school with a fresh start & people that care about me. Christian friends that build me up & make me feel incredibly loved. This is my answered prayer from God & I am so happy with myself & my current state of being. I hope y'all have an amazing 2017-2018 school year. As far as my brother and I feel, catch us cheering "GO BEARS!!"

Caleb and Bethany start their new journey.